Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Treatment is NOT for Sissys

Tuesday
10:00 a.m.
Today we go to the Radiation clinic as usual.
My husband's throat on the inside burns like fire. On the outside, it looks like he's been in a fire. The fires of Hell.

I would love to show you a picture, but after snapping a very graphic photo of it with my iPhone, I realize that it's so horribly ugly and mean looking that others that may read this blog for advice or searching for answers for a loved one going through this exact treatment might scare them so badly that they will not take the treatments at all.
It's bad, really really bad.
The skin has gotten so dry and cracked and seeping blood and that is on the outside. Weeping. I can't even imagine what it looks like or feels like from the inside.
(I will never complain of a sore throat again in my life)

Sipping water has gotten to be a real challenge and so much pain that I see him wince as he swallows. One sip. He tries to hide it from me but I see it and have to leave the room. 
He still has his pride.
I continue to have great hope here but today we were told not to take the radiation treatments for 3 days to allow this area to heal. The doctor told us today that the skin will get worse. Much worse.
It's like someone laid out in the sun with only their neck exposed for 10 solid years with no sunscreen. We are given so many prescriptions for pain: Mary's Magic Mouthwash, Lidocaine Elixir, Esophagitis Elixir, Lortab pills, Lortab Elixir. All are liquids to go into the G-tube or pills to be crushed.


The skin is purple, broken, dry and seeping.
We are sent home. 
Counting the days until this is over and these last 9 treatments may either make him or break him.



Meet The Mask~
This is the Dreaded Mask my husband hates so much. The mask is necessary to get exact pinpoint results for the beams to hit their targets.
 They form-fit the mask very close to your face then place it on you. You can not move or blink your eyes. Then, they clamp you and the mask to the table, chain your arms to your sides and treatment begins.  No movement. 
35 - 40 minutes. 17 different angles.
My husband is very claustrophobic and despises this damn thing.
I would too.



9 more radiation treatments and two more rounds of chemo then we play the waiting game...
Let's not go there today. Recurrence and surgery options have become like swear words to me. I refuse to have them in my house or near my brain.
Cutting off your entire bottom jaw, tongue, voice box and half your neck?  Nuh-uh. Not thinking about that today.


There is a man we know that we see every day at the radiation clinic.
He has brain cancer. It's odd how he found out that he had it.
He was in a restaurant and had this overwhelming need to flee. 
Some super-anxiety attack? No.
It happened several more times in the week that followed. He would be out or even at home sitting in a chair and this horrible anxiousness and fear to run would completely take over and he would literally run away.
Then the seizures came so he went to see his family doctor. They did the scans, PET, CAT and MRI scans and found he had a tiny pea sized tumor on his brain. 
Why the fears and anxiousness? The tumor was on the part of the brain that signals "Flight or Fight." Adrenaline would go into overdrive and he would feel as though he was in a burning building.  His urge to flee would provoke such fear. Complete fear.
They removed the tumor but told him his chances of survival are 0%.
This isn't just some random man that we know but a friend. My husband has known him since grade school.

We have the next few days to heal and wait. Then those last nine treatments and two chemo rounds face us. 
After that, the waiting begins....



65 comments:

  1. I had allowed a nasty email from a client upset me today, then I read your blog...I am so embarrassed and humbled. I know we have never met, but I have grown fond of you by watching your YouTube for many months and now as I pray for Henry and you God has filled my heart with care and love for you both. Heavenly Father lift Lana and Henry up today and let them feel your loving arms of strength and peace overwhelm them. I pray for your healing power...amen
    Sandee from Dallas

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  2. God Bless You!! My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  3. Prayers going up for you and Henry.
    Hugs to you both.
    DeDe

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  4. Lana, I feel for you and Henry... how hard it must be for you right know. You two are going through something that you don't wish for you worst enemy. I am sending you loving thoughts and prayers from Sweden. I am certain that Henry will get through this but you have a long and hard time ahead of you. Try and get som rest together when you can. Warm hugs for you.

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  5. Lana ... its IrishCol1only here YouTube. I just want to let you know that you and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers each night and I am sending you the biggest, warmest hug. Stay strong Lana...I know its not easy, and those hard days are so difficult to get through, but look at how well you are coping, you may not feel like you are, but you are being amazing! Thank you so much for sharing this time with us! xx00xx

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  6. Hey Lana, I hope I've figured out how to post. The awful process of this treatment breaks my heart. I never realized how horrible radiation can be. I'm lying in bed with a bad cold and am ashamed of myself for being such a baby with sniffles and chest congestion. I pray for comfort for you and Henry every night and beg Him for a miracle. My thoughts, prayers, and love are with you always. Henry is a strong man and soon both of you will look back and this will all be behind you.

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  7. {{huggs}} from San Diego.

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  8. This is so unreal. I am praying every day. Keep looking up...

    I posted this on my FB yesterday.Seems fitting here as well....

    For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you (Isaiah 41:13).

    Love you both,
    PomMomLisa

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  9. pls be strong Lana ....thinking of you every day and hoping for good times
    shirly (Israel)

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  10. Your husband is incredibly brave for going through all of this. I don't think I could. He is so lucky having someone like you to take care of him.

    I want you to know you're always in my thoughts.

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  11. Why oh why has someone not cut out the eyes on the mask? Most people feel much less claustrophobic when they can at least open their eyes and blink. The tech can absolutely do that for Henry! It won't affect the treatment at all. Love you guys! I am soo glad you have each other! xoxo

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  12. Lana you and Henry are Fighters!!
    I know its hard to be so strong in front of him. But Sweetie your doing it!! I wish I could do more for you. My prayers and thoughts are with you BOTH!
    Love ya! ((hugs)) your Viva Las Vegas Friend ~Lorrie

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  13. I can see why Henry has been complaining about this mask. This alone shows me that Henry is a very strong, brave man,to wear a thing like that. I hope that Henry's skin heals some during this break and send prayers and love your way to help you find the strength to make it through these last rounds of treatment. Biggest Hugs!

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  14. We've got spirit, yes we do
    We've got spirit, how bout you?
    1-2-3-4 we've got more than you can score
    5-6-7-8 we've got more than you can take
    9-10-11-12 we've got more than you can spell

    *Cheering for you & Henry* :-)

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  15. Dearest Lana and Henry, Whew, what a day for you both. I know it is exhausting physically, emotionally but you have come this far. At the onset, not long after the diagnosis then treatment plan were discussed, I bet you doubted yourselves. Who wouldn't? It's scary, it's painful beyond words but with your love for each other, you know that there is no alternative but to go forward and fight this all the way. Nine treatments left, theoretically speaking it's not a lot but for Henry, it takes immense courage far more than any of us here can imagine. He is so brave, he is strong in his mind and his heart and I pray that this continues. You have each other and you will both come out of this safe with your love even stronger than before. These are the ties that bind.

    I pray that Henry heals satisfactorily over the next few days to allow him to continue with the radiotherapy. I know what it looks like Lana, I've seen it in my own patients. Warmest hugs to you both dear Lana. I love you, both of you. Think strong thoughts, positive thoughts please. Leyla xxxooo

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  16. Me again Lana, You are the sweetest, kindest, most darling friend and we all love you for being the way you are. To expose your feelings, your anxieties here takes so much strength and I admire you deeply Lana. I understand that it helps you, to get your thoughts and feelings out. God bless you and Henry. Hugs and lots of love, Leyla xxxooo

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  17. Sending love today Lana
    Just Love
    jen xoxo

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  18. I get where you're at to some degree, to not want to post certain things. I get that and it makes complete sense to me. Just don't let it censor you too much. The catharsis of blogging for me would be lost if I censored myself too much.

    I was a registered dental assistant for almost 15 years. I wish I could tell you how many people I saw on a daily basis who poo poo'ed mouth or throat cancer. It wont happen., or today cancer is a survivable disease, or I have years til I need to worry. I convinced one man to go to his dentist and get a biopsy. He waited so so long.

    I think people don't understand the DEPTH and the BREADTH to which these illnesses effect the lives of everyone touched by them. This is no walk in the effin park. This sh*t is REAL (Im sorry I'm from Jersey. Cursing is like breathing for us). This isn't a bad cold, or a glitch in our lives. This is the real deal. We have become so anesthetized to the severity of these diseases and to others trials and pain, that the response is a lot like people watching a movie or a video game. If "it" isn't solved in a half an hour, they move on lol. We need to know that the bottom can fall out at any time. Some things we can do to lower our chances and we should, but sometimes it just happens.

    I have grown to have such respect for you, for your depth of character, for your ability to convey a scene that I've even written about it myself.

    If the only thing you can come away with from this whole crappy lousy scenario today is the fact that you inspire and make us so proud, then grab it and run. Hold that fact close when you sleep and feed it to Henry through Franklin. We can't do much but we can do that much for you.<3

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  19. I feel so useless so far away and so unable to do anything to help. I pray with all my heart this ends happily xxxxxxxJoolsxxxxxxxxxxx

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  20. I feel humbled by your strength, I would not be up to this task I know that. I am amazed at how the two of you are coping with this awful nightmare you found yourselves in. It will come to an end and he will get better. I feel useless with nothing of any value to say, except that I am thinking of you both going through this.
    Carole x

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  21. ...thinking of you. And, sending positive energy and love your way.

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  22. I am absolutely speechless over that mask. I had know idea when you spoke of the thing just what it looked like let alone how long you have to be confined in the thing. I'm blown away he can do this. Forget the Valium you would have to knock me out ! Just having to face this awful disease take such courage but it's the treatment that truly tests you. You are brave and Henry's courage deserves every medal out there. You are over half way done, take the positive of that. The countdown is on. You are almost there. Don't give up now. You've made it this far. There definitely is hope. Now go hug your man!

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  23. Oh my goodness that mask thing is horrifying!!!!!!! I can see why your husband feels the way he does. I really, really feel for him. I can only imagine the horror he is going through. I find myself grasping at my throat and swallowing hard as i read your post. Tears stream down my face as i think about how this could be one of my loved ones and how the radiation is eating away at his flesh and god knows whats happening on the inside. I said it before and I will say it again i wish i could suck this stuff out of him and spit it on a pedophile or child killer. God i cant get the image of that mask out my head it reminds be of a Hannibal Lector type thing so scary!! Being confined like that for so long must be absolutely horrible and not even being able to see what is going on. I really, really feel for your dear sweet Henry. I pray that when his treatments are done that he will be cancer free and he wont have to endure this ever again and that he will be able to take an axe to that horrible mask and chop it into a million pieces. I know you are not supposed to ask why?? but sometimes you just have to say why!! Why do good, decent people have to go through such hell while others get away with murder?? I pray for healing for your Henry. I pray for you both to have strength to get through the next 9 treatments. Many hugs, thoughts and prayers to you both. Faith, Hope & Love, Anita (LaLaBella5a)

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  24. OMG, poor Henry! I think if there's a lesson somehow to be learned from all this agony he and you (Lana) are going through, it is to not ignore symptoms. People, don't put off getting a lump here or there looked at! Because, you'll go through what Henry is going through now. Perhaps if he had gone to his doctor at the first sign of a lump or any discomfort in his throat and neck, this dreaded disease could have been 'caught' and treated earlier.

    Stay strong Lana!

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  25. Our prayers are with you both . You will get
    through this . .

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  26. Lana~

    I am still thinking sweet thoughts about you and Henry.....sweeter than the Hoosier Pie! You are both greatly loved and prayed for on a constant basis. You are in a battle, for sure, but you are never without hope in this world. It is quite obvious that you will never be without the love of many people either! Love encourages and strengthens...kind of like a
    B-12 shot gives you energy. I pray that the love of so many will strengthen you this week!

    Kisses~~Karen

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  27. Lana, I have nothing to offer you but love across the miles, and praise for how brave you both are. You say you're not brave, but you are. You are living this every day, helping Henry, surviving. You get out of bed every day, some people wouldn't be able to. You are a warrior.

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  28. OMG! That thing looks like an ancient torture device! I can't imagine having to put that on. Poor Henry. I cry at the thought of what his throat must feel like. Isn't there a cream or balm you can put on his neck, or do they just want you to leave it alone? My prayers go out for you and Henry every day. Love to you two.

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  29. Lana,

    Thank you for showing us the picture of the mask. My mental picture was a little surgical mask, not a medieval torture device. I cannot believe medical science would do that to people.

    I want to hold both of you in my arms and just love you and comfort you. I can't make it go away. I can only sit here and let you know I am praying for you and sending you all the positive energy I have. You *will* survive this.

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  30. Sweet Lana, I am speechless. My family and I pray for you both every day and you are both so often in my thoughts. I send you both all my love and strength and faith, take heart Lana, so many of us are with you in spirit!!!! Deepest love, Ria

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  31. I wish there was something more I could do for you, Dearest Lana! Just know that I am here, praying my heart out for you and Henry -- and also know that you have EVERY RIGHT to break down and you should not feel weak or badly for doing so!! You need to have a release! I don't know how else you could get through it!

    Please take good care of yourself, too! We don't need you getting sick. I will continue to pray for you and I am so hopeful this will be the end of the treatments and you two are able to resume your "old" lives once these treatments are over!

    <3 you both!
    Moya
    sorry, I can't remember how to sign in!

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  32. Oh Lana, that mask is so horrible. I would be a basket case if I had to wear that. They would have to shoot me with a tranquilizer gun because I'd bolt and be running down the hall. I'm speechless because I cannot believe that modern science hasn't come up with something, after all these years, to make what has to be the most terrifying illness bearable. My mother had sores on her legs and they'd put this balm on them and wrap them in soft bandages and they healed. I wish they could do that for Henry's neck. I was whining to myself how out of shape I am and hot hot it's been and I read this and I realize I have no problems. Lana, I wish I could give you both a big hug and make it all go away for you both. But I can't. I will, however, continue sending you extra-strength pixie dust, glitter, twinkles, sparkles, hugs and love. I hope St. Jude and St. Anthony hear all of the prayers we're all sending you for a speedy recovery. God Bless You both. You're both braver than I could ever be. Take care...

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  33. Dearest Lana and Henry,
    Sending you much love and healing thoughts from Ontario.
    I wish there was something I could do to comfort you both. Know that my heart and prayers go out to you both. You guys are an amazing pair!
    Warmly,
    Shelliebill

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  34. i started watching you on youtube when you made a video about being a flight attendant. you seem like the sweetest person on earth! you're truly an inspiration and a role model and i hope you know that.
    stay strong; love and prayers from philadelphia <3

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  35. I simply don't know how you can go through this each day and your dear husband as well. It's painful reading this but your pain is a thousand fold worse.

    I hope that after this long, horrible battle, your darling husband comes through and recovers and that he never has to suffer this evil injustice again.

    You are amazing Lana and your husband is a rock star.

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  36. Praying for you both.

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  37. Dear Lana ~ I, too, pictured a much smaller mask. That thing looks scary. I'm wishing... hoping... praying for this nightmare to be over and for everything to be okay. Yesterday, I was thinking that I need a pedicure, and I could hear your voice saying "Pretty toes, pretty toes." I so want to hear your sweet, happy voice again.
    Sending love to you both,
    Mary Sue

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  38. missevamarie (EvaEvaEva923)August 10, 2011 at 9:38 AM

    Sending love, love, love and more love. Meditating and praying every day for you both. Pushing out those positive and healing lights to find you. Visualizing Henry strong and well, teasing you and smiling. Visualizing our sweet Lana making her youtube vids and making us all happy to see her joyous face. Love you both. Hugs xxxx Eva

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  39. Oh Lana, Just seeing a photo of that torturous looking mask, made my heart skip a beat. That is a horrifying looking thing. Poor Henry--for having to wear it--and poor you, for having to watch, and wait, as your husband endures this torture. You are both in my prayers sweetie. Perhaps reading this article will help boost your faith right now. Prayer works--and so many are praying for Henry and for you as well. Big hugs,~Marilyn
    http://photoblog.msnbc.msn.com/_news/2011/08/10/7326710-dramatic-rescue-boy-revived-after-being-sucked-out-to-sea

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  40. Dearest Lana and Henry- Sendign you love & prayers!

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  41. Another hug being sent your way dearest Lana. I hope and pray that Henry is improving sufficiently in order that you proceed with another treatment. Lots of love, Leyla xxxooo

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  42. Dearest Lana and Henry, the site of that mask gives new meaning to the expression, "a picture is worth a thousand words." 5 minutes would seem like an eternity, 40 min., unimaginable, being clamped down, speechless! There is so much love out here for you and Henry, that beautiful lady by your sides priceless. I am saddened by the news of your friend and horrified by how badly your neck is burned. Maybe you can bear it just a little longer then won't have to go through it any more. Reaching across the miles to you. connie

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  43. Lana, I know you don't want to think about it, but look into Roger Ebert's journey with cancer. He's been through so much and is now living a very vibrant life. I hope this is the worst of what you have to go through. You are dear to so many.

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  44. Lana PLEASE let Henry know that he gives me encouragement everyday! Almost 2 weeks or so after you came on to youtube about this I found out that I have kidney cancer. This has been truly scary and I have my faith but sometimes my anxiety takes over and I think about your Henry being so brave. Just PLEASE let him know that I think about his battle as I'm going through mine. God bless and continue to give strength! XO

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  45. Reading about that mask and what Henry went through is horrible. Seeing it is even worse. Your poor man. I would go nuts trying not to move. I guess you can endure anything to save your life. It is saving his life. God knows how much he's needed here. Stay strong Henry. Things will eventually get better. It doesn't seem like it but it will happen. I pray for Henry often. Whenever I wake up in the middle of the night, I say another prayer for him. God bless you both and hold on. The torture will end before you know it. God bless you both.

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  46. DEAREST LANA...WELCOME TO THE CLUB. NO ONE WANTS TO JOIN THIS CLUB. THE DUES SEEM MORE THAN WE CAN BEAR. BUT OUR NUMBERS GROW DAY BY DAY. PEOPLE IN THIS GROUP RECOGNIZE OTHER GROUP MEMBERS WITH A TIRED SMILE, EYES SEEING BURNED SKIN OR ILL-FITTING CLOTHES DUE TO SAVAGE SURGERY. WE ARE THE SILENT, STRONG ONES SITTING IN HOSPITALS WORLD-WIDE, WAITING FOR TREATMENTS THAT ALMOST KILL US,ALMOST. WE ARE CARE-GIVERS TOO. DRIVEN, RESIGNED, SEEING LOVED ONES SUFFERING,SHARING THE PAIN ALONG THE WAY. MEMEBERS OF THIS GROUP CHANGE FOR THE BETTER. WE BECOME STRONGER, MORE COMPASSIONATE, MORE FORGIVING. WE REALLY DON'T SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF. WE LIVE DAY BY DAY. WE THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING, KNOWING THAT SUFFERING IS PART OF LIFE. EVEN A FABULOUS LIFE LIKE YOURS, DEAREST LANA. AND IT STILL IS FABULOUS. ONE DAY, MAYBE FAR INTO THE FUTURE, YOU AND HENRY WILL LOOK BACK AT THIS AND SEE THAT IT WAS ALL PART OF GOD'S PLAN. THE CRYING, THE STRUGGLE, THE GROWING, THE PAIN. HE NEVER LEAVES US, NEVER. HE WANTS US TO DRAW NEARER TO HIM, RELY, CLING AND ADHERE TO HIM. IT IS A HARD LESSON, THIS GROWING, BUT OTHERS HAVE COMPLETED IT. YOU AND HENRY WILL TOO.
    SENDING PRAYERS OF HEALING AND LOVE TO YOU BOTH. LOVE NONI
    P.S. PUT ON SOME PINK LIPSTICK GIRL AND STAND YOUR GROUND.

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  47. love and hugs from Thailand
    be strong Lana for your love

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  48. God Bless you both Lana. I'm sending you all the love and light in my heart and soul and I will continue to pray. Hugs♥

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  49. Dear Lana,
    I feel your pain and suffering.You are scared and the waiting is unbearable.You just want this cancer to be gone! Banished forever! Your darling Henry loves you so very much,beautiful Lana.
    Stay strong.Stay focused.Stay positive.
    You and Henry will beat this. I feel it.I know it.

    Praying for a wee miracle,Lana.
    Just one tiny miracle.That's all you need right now. That is not too much to ask.
    You and Henry deserve that,so I will not stop praying for that miracle.You and Henry are always in my thoughts and prayers.
    Just want you to be happy again and enjoy the simple things in life.Feel the sunshine on your face and the soft grass under your feet.

    Sending you healing thoughts your way,Dear Lana.

    Big hugs,
    Julia xxxx

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  50. Lana,
    Ohhh that freakin mask! Reading your blog really puts things into perspective for me. I swear I think of what you and Henry are going through and nothing can even compare to that. I so wish I could take away the pain, Henry's horrible pain. It really doesn't seem fair. Why is he going through this? It just goes to show that we should never take anything for granted. I think about my husband and how we fight about different things, at the end of the day we have a ton to be thankful for. I am so sorry that you have to live this nighmare. I pray everyday that it will be over and all the pain will be worth it in the end. All of the chemo and radiation will be a success and Henry can LIVE again. There is nothing else to say right now accept CANCER SUCKS! God bless you both my friend. I am sending postive vibes and energy your way! Lots of love and prayers as well! I look forward to your next post. xoxoxo Kathy

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  51. Dear Lana,

    My heart and soul are with you both. You are walking through the valley of the shadow of death...yet you have all of us here raising you up in the most powerful way. I can't wave a magic wand and make it all better, but I can tell you that whatever you go through, you can handle it. And we're are all right here by your side with all the angels cheering both of you on. Sometimes the right thing to do is to say goodbye, and sometimes the right thing to do is to fight valiantly. None of us can say what is right for you...only you know.

    Love and light and blessings,

    Sherie

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  52. Failure is not an option. Henry will make a full recovery & that crappy mask is a blessing in disguise. It is assisting in kicking that cancers ass. Rebuke all negative thought into the pit of hell. Positive thoughts, positive results. You are in my thoughts & prayers.
    Stephanie

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  53. My heart breaks for the both of you today, but my love and strength are with you in thought and prayer each and every day, tho we've never met and probably never will, know that there is someone out here in California who has done this horrible cancer dance with a loved one with malignant mesothelioma. The best thing I can say is to honor your husband with honest and frank discussions about his treatment and prognosis, let him vent, and give him a safe place to show his fear. Likewise don't be afraid to show your vulnerability, its ok, and normal to have a breakdown durning this crap. Then gather the fight and go back in the game. Treatments can be harder to take as you get closer to the end as the person knows what to expect, so the countdown can be a tough time. Hold your husbands hand this week for all of us. Love Susan aka BellaSC

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  54. Dammit Lana...that "mask" is, I don't know, is just bigger and uglier than I thought. Geez, a non-claustrophobic person would have issues with it. Ok, anyway, I thought of you and Henry a couple of days ago while watching the news...it was a piece on a new cancer breakthrough that given great promise to cancers, I'll post the link, it was from Pennsylvania and it's worth a read, I hope you get this. I hope and pray this may be something that could be used for Henry. Love you both, stay strong...calvikingchick YT

    http://articles.latimes.com/2011/aug/11/health/la-he-0811-cancer-therapy-20110811

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  55. Warm thoughts to you and Henry dearest Lana.....hope both of you can have some proper rest and share some smiles along the way this weekend. You are in my prayers and in my heart. Much love to you both. Leyla xxxooo

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  56. Hey, its been a while. You doing OK?

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  57. Dear Lana, I saw the mask and tears filled my eyes. Henry is so strong and brave. Knowing what he has to overcome to recieve his radiation. I pray for the two of you.
    And you are right but saying you will never complain about a sore throat. I am learning so much from you and Henry and my sister that is fighting cancer at this moment. God bless you. I send you my love and prayers

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  58. Oh dear Lana, I'm so sorry, you probably thought I abandoned you. I didn't! I've had so much going on, none of it good, that I was so addled, I've been posting in July and wondering where you and everybody else went! LOL. I still pray for you every day, even though I didn't post for a few. It was a long flight from Vancouver to Florida, and I've been dealing with one family problem after the other. I'm such a dingbat, you can see my posts in July. I wondered where the Hell everyone went, and just today realized you were all in August. Well I'm still here and always have been, just on the wrong page. Oh the story of my life.

    Please light you candle for Lana and Henry here:

    http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=LI

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  59. Thank you for your thoughts. Please let me know why your friend's chances are 0 percent after the removal of his brain tumor. I ask because I lost my very best friend to a brain tumor. His tumor was inoperable. He appeared to have dementia before the tumor was found. I appreciate the education you are giving us...even if it is so painful. Thinking of you and your husband...and wishing you the best in these dire circumstances. -- Elizabeth

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  60. Dearest Lana and Henry,

    Just a brief note to let you know that you are in my prayers and my thoughts. Lots of love, Leyla xxxooo

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  61. Just checking in with you and sending many hugs, thougths and prayers of healing for your dear sweet Henry. Faith, Hope & Love, Anita
    (LaLaBella5a)

    P.S. I keep trying to post with my google account but its not letting me

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  62. Hi Lana,
    I'm worried about you, thinking of you and Henry. Please know lots of prayers are being sent for you both!
    Kathy

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  63. Hi Lana, hope you guys are ok. I am thinking of you all the time and sending you best wishes and hugs. Love Sue xxx

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  64. My heart breaks as I read your Blog. But you are so right to record it. I send you both my prayers and wishes for a Miracle. Please know we all love and support you. Big, big squeeze hug. We love you both.

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  65. Oh Lana dear bless Henry's sweet heart. That mask is unthinkable. It reminds me so of that Dr. Phibes (remember that Vincent Price horror film?) I was just a child when that movie once aired on a local network so it had to be in the 70’s. It was just awful. I am so sorry Henry ever had to become familiar with that horrible thing. I can not imagine how he must dread it when even the glimpse of it brings me a flood of fear. He is such an amazing man Lana. The two of you are truly well matched.

    It seems like we all wish we could do more-please take some solace in that. And know that it's because of you and how wonderful you are that so many care. The love you gave through your channel Lana is coming back to you 100 fold. And with it, we send you our love and strength-so that you may be everything your heart desires for your precious man. love, Kat

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